BEHIND MY SMILE

Behind my smile lies so many other parts of my life that I feel like I'm losing control of. I smile because I have the most beautiful children in the world. I smile because I am so lucky to be a mother. I smile because I love life, but still, there are some things that cause me pain every day and you would never even know.

Behind my smile is a girl who just wants to sleep all day.

Behind my smile is a girl whos relationship has fallen apart.

Behind my smile is a girl who stayed up until 11 trying to get work and study done.

Behind my smile is a girl who feels ugly.

Behind my smile is a girl who wants to give her kids everything deserve but feels like she can't.

Behind my smile is a girl who can't see people in love without wanting to cry.

Behind my smile is a girl who is waiting for all of her hard work to pay off.

Behind my smile is a girl who has to mentally force herself to leave the house everyday.

Behind my smile is a girl who wants to be made to feel special.

Behind my smile is a girl who wants to change the world.

Behind my smile is a girl who doesn't feel good enough.

Behind my smile is a girl who just wants her little family to be together... happily.

I smile because my children are my everything. They are the light of my life and waking up to them every single day is so amazing. They give me the strength I need to battle the inner demons that I deal with on a daily basis and for that, I am so grateful that I have them. 

There is always a story behind that smile that you see on social media. You never know what that person is going through behind that picture, but I just couldn't pretend anymore.